Trust & Found

How do I even begin to find the words for my own divinity?

For the journey that has torn me apart while simultaneously putting me back together.

How do I tell you fully about how many times I lost myself only to find myself in my own shadow?

My partner the entire time.

I've tried and tried and TRIED!

And finally settled on this:

I thought I'd find my true self in my deepest sadness.

It took up so much space I thought " this must be the place."

But it turned out that my truest self lived in my honesty and trust.

Because no matter how far you distance yourself from truth, it will always find you.

I found my truest self hiding in the corner of my mind and soul.

Trapped by my own perception, anger and shame.

I found my truest self in my own denial.

Unwilling

Uncertain

Unloved

How did I let myself do this?

I found myself, falling off the metaphorical cliff and looked up to finally see myself holding out my hands.

"I got you."

"Are you sure?"

"These biceps are mostly for show but not totally."

"I'm scared."

"So am I."

"But you trust me?"

"I trust you. Do you trust me?"

"I trust you."

I found my truest, most Divine self in myself.

In my love.

Patience

Understanding

Anger

Sadness

Joy

Light

And Trust.

All of it,

welcomed me home.

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