
Marina Biggio
Evolution of Love
I used to know Love
As all there was
Then it became
Something attained
And Love was equated with acceptance
Belonging and escaping shame
Then I thought it was something romantic
The classic romance movie antic
And when that floor fell through
I only knew it as Family
And I knew that much to be true
Then Love became synonymous with longing
Tangled with craving and with fear
A feeling of deep despair
If God forbid you were not near
But that grew tiresome
I knew there was more
Then I experienced true Magnetism,
Lusting until I was sore
My heart ached so sweetly
Deep in my core
But even that wasn’t exactly
What my Heart was yearning for
The lust turned to Kindness
Healthy Love and adoration
But I could feel my Soul reaching
For the Peace and pure elation
That comes with coming home
Little did I know I’d never find it
In another human Soul
I wouldn’t find it outside myself
Only looking within would I ever feel Whole
So every day I hold myself
And see what needs my care
I fill my void not with outside things
But instead the Acceptance
That Loving Kindness brings
I quiet the judgment in my mind
To see my harsh words more clearly
I forgive myself for hating myself
So that I can finally Love myself deeply
I remind myself I belong here
Feet firmly planted in the dirt
I remind myself it’s okay to not be okay
And to let myself cry when I am hurt
I tell myself I am Protected
By the Universe and infinite nature of my Soul
I Surrender myself to be filled with Love
I choose to believe
We are all unconditionally deserving of feeling Whole
To feel it I Radically and lovingly accept
The flaws within and without
To feel Whole you cannot cast aside
The feelings you want to numb out
We all have the right to Remember
Our connection to Existence itself
And the doorway is right beneath our nose
An infinite store of true Wealth
A thread woven into every person and every thing
And deep down we already know
The more we Love and accept ourselves
The more the true face of Love will show.
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